“Wounds must be allowed to heal in their own time. Nothing bought in any store can accelerate healing processes. Something in your world, probably from your past, is not being allowed to heal in ways it wants to or should be. Your determination not to let it alone stems from a perceived need to cling to an aspect of it. It is time to accept something in the past must remain there.”
i love this horoscope service i have on my BBM..it’s always on point…
I DO very much believe i am holding on to some aspect of the past… in my heart i think it might be a form of trauma..inflicted upon me by an abusive boyfriend…a strict father? a very small minded community growing up? These thoughts come to mind because despite the people i have met who have told me time and time again that I am worthy of the world…it’s mine if i want it.
I internally find it difficult to believe, I’m so afraid of believing too much in myself… afraid of high hopes being crushed. At the same time.. i applaud myself for following my dream….earning a living doing what I love and inspiring others as much as i can… odd how i can be that emotional hypocrite to myself… aiding this battle which i am pretty sure i won already but i keep fighting. Maybe i’m just a very complicated woman.. or as a friend once told me… ‘ an old soul ‘ who knows.
we all have issues… i get closer and closer every single day of figuring out what mine are. never too old to learn something new..about yourself. no matter the age..we never ‘know it all’ …
and the older i get… the more i grow … the easier it is to understand why we must let go.. but the more challenging it becomes to do it … change comes as something unnatural to some of us… we fear it… but only with change can we truly progress … and develop… like any life process on this beautiful and infected planet we all share. We should let go… it is in itself..the freedom we all search for.. but nothing worth getting was ever easy… and i am stubborn… but ..since i want change.. i’m going to allow myself to let go of something.. even if just for a bit ..each day.. from this point on. so it begins….again.
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